Satan is a cunning little man. My feeling of apathy and lack of desire for the beautiful things are not like me. I contribute it tot he little demon that has leeched itself onto me. This conniving little bastard (if I may be so bold to call him) has reaked havoc in my life for the past five years.
With the combination of my selfishness and lack of faith, my demon has been a masterful puppeteer. In the beginning, I was really committed to my marriage. Let me rephrase that. Before I got married and while I was making preparations to move half way across the country, I was committed and determined to make sure my marriage was going to be strong and successful. Well, in my opinion, good intentions tend to disappear like a fart in the wind. They will get you no where.
The voice of reason and faithfulness are covered by the small but powerful voice of selfishness and self-indulgence. Frankly, it pisses me off. My demon crawls around me ... Whispering lies and deceit in my ears ... Slithering in and out of my thoughts. What have I done to fight this? Nothing! I make my husband my enemy and end up loathing my children.
Ahhh, children --- faces of innocence.
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